Monday, October 31, 2005

Ambigiously Gay Trio

Clinton's ain't got nothing on this.

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Theme of the Day: Persistence

Today everything's been about being persistent. Giving up is usually because I make stupid excuses to prevent me from seeing what I really want. So I've got to remember the whip behind me and the carrot ahead of me. Those two combined motivate me to push past any "barriers" I've created.

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

On another note...

I totally got a chance to geek at work today. I hadn't used much of my Chemical Engineering background for work in quite sometime. but when I stumbled across the phrase "venting air at sonic velocity" was quickly taken back to sophomore year sitting in Dougherty Hall in front of a messy haired, stammering Asian man. Ahhh... those were the days.

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Share your Passion

Everyone has a dream, probably several. Some of my dreams include having a car that I love to drive, having a house that I suits my lifestyle and being with people who bring the best out of me.

But none of these are really my passion. My passion is far more reaching, far more testing and far more satisfying to live. My passion connects me to people in a way that elucidates each and every potential of my interaction with them through each and every pore of my body. That may be just as small as saying good job or a hug. Or it may be a larger undertaking that involves me growing a person from a guy to a man or just using my knowledge to start moving someone closer to their dream. I have no judgment on their dreams just a sense of whether ours share some space.

There is something lovely about being able to share my vision through my body, mind and spirit. I embrace this.

Monday, October 24, 2005

Show Me the Money

"Shaq is RICH! The white guy who signs Shaq's checks is wealthy!" -- Chris Rock

These last few weeks have been pondering what my relationship is to successs, wealth and money. I haven't drawn any hard and fast definitions, its definitely a work in progress. But I have trajectory of thought I'd like to share.

If I am successful with money, I own it and place where it can work for me. I understand the mechanisms and procedures that dictate the direction of money. This is very useful if you're starting a business or even a family.

If I am wealthy, I don't need to be successful with money. I can always hire someone to do that. There's probably a lot of people out there who konw how to manage money and are not themselves wealthy. When I'm wealthy, I figure it will spill over to those around. Chris Rock joked that when you're wealthy, you secure the future of generations. I agree, but I think it's not just those who come in your lineage, but those who surround you that benefit from your wealth: friends, family, business acquaintances.

I've also come to notice that people 'want' you to succeed but don't necessarily create avenues of success with you. They rather put up barriers. This isn't a cry for senseless yes-manship. But rather the development of an acute sense of being able to discriminate what possibilities exist, the timeline, and the effort needed for success.

Life is a dance, security allows you to dance a little more beautifully.

Friday, October 21, 2005

Your Horoscope: Today is an Auspicious Day

Today, I hopped a fence, got a little wet and tresspassed...

All this the greater good for all of humanity.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Lego Cock Rocket

I'm gonna design a cock rocket at the Lego Factory.

If you want to know more about the boring, geeky stuff behind the LF, check out this post.

The Astros win, the Astros Win!

Holy shit! That was one phenomenal series. When Game 5 ended in a 3 run blast by the most domineeering batter in the NL, I was deflated. But when Oswalt stepped in and stepped up unhit through 4 and only letting on one run and three hits through 7.

The Astros dominated the series. After dropping only the first game, they earned the split at St. Louis and followed through with two wins at home. Both were great games. Then through 9 2/3 innings having a two run lead lost it to Pujols and Ekstein. Even at this point I'm sure every Astros fan And then the domination

The Astros vs. White Sox is going to be a great series. I hope. Both have monster bullpens. The Astros have never been to the World Series and the White Sox haven't been in about 80 years.

So normally I hate baseball. It's either full of errors, ridiculously in favor of one team, or just plain old boring baseball. This will not be that type of series. Both teams are scrappy. Both teams have class. And both teams have heros even of the unexpected variety (remember Backe last year in the playoffs.)

If baseball interests you in the least and you're sick of the watching teams like the Yankees and Boston slug it out, this will be a great series.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Chaos, confusion, creativity and resilience

"We may not be interested in chaos, but chaos is interested in us."

- Robert Cooper "The Breaking of Nations: Order and Chaos in the 21st Century

My world is changing. It is in a state of flux. Even worse, that flux isn't constant. Sometimes it moves at a slow pace, other times it barages me. My world expands and then becomes smaller and then smaller before it explodes. Not exactly an easy situation to wrap myself around.

The world is getting larger. With the amount of information available to me on a daily basis, I have to be able to evaluate and discriminate it's relative value without any conscious thought. I can't sit there listing all my values, all my the information available to me and create a comparison charts. Rather I have to know what I want and go after it with intensity. A fire in my belly. This fire burns through confusion . If I have patience and balance I will reach my goal. So I learned to breathe.

The world is getting smaller. I find more and more people in my life with the same yearnings and hopes. They want to be successful. They want to have a sense of freedom. I think the world is yearning for something more. They want to feel alive. I don't know when we started to feel dead, but it probably happened when we tried to become adults. As we start to identify with each other's struggles for not only success but survival as well, we become closer; compadres so to speak. One day we'll be asked to save each other's lives. And a child's mind is our avenue to salvation. Sometimes we forget how damned we are.

I empty myself and feel. I feel myself and I fill. I fill myself and express. I express myself and empty. Rinse and repeat.

Top 100 Public Intellectuals

Foreign Policy and Prospect have released Top 100 Public Intellectuals survey results.

No suprise that the majority of the people on the list are left leaning, white males. I'm actually a little suprised the de Soto was listed at 13 and not far lower.

Some other notables are Amartya Sen at 8 and Paul Wolfowitz at 19.

Also check out the analysis on page 2 of the article.

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

That Bitch!

My sister's getting a new dog! I'm sooo jealous. It's so cute.

Update 10/25: Looks like the landlord decided that she can't have any big dogs. Now that dog doesn't look too big to you does it?

Monday, October 17, 2005

Destiny and the Arcline

The arcline in yogic anatomy is an arc that extends from one ear over the crown to the other ear. You see it in religious iconagraphy as a golden halo over saints and other religions figures. But we all have one with varying colors and thinknesses.

From my own personal experiences it clears your head and sets your thoughts straight. It has several aspects like wisdom, meditation and self-esteem. But the ones I'm concerned with are protection and destiny.

So destiny. I never considered my destiny to preclude my free will. Actually, I consider my destiny something I chose along with my concept of Nature/High Being as I developed the first petterings of my own self concept. Anything that barred me from being aligned with a self concept instantly became what I was suppose to change. That's my passion. It strive for more. My passion is directly connected to my destiny. And when I'm work with my destiny in mind, I have clarity of action. If my actions and destiny are aligned with the greatest good, then it's wisdom.

Personally, I think that life wants me to succeed. When I pursue my deepest destiny with the force and relentlessness of a warrior, then in my darkest moments grace will break through.

Somehow I suspect that my arcline is connected to my heart. I remember reading that if you have a strong arcline you can live with a loving heart without any concern of being hurt. Personally, I look forward to living with an open heart.

Friday, October 14, 2005

Practice, Experience, Incorporate, Express

Have you ever met a totally enchanting individual? Have you ever noticed how expressive they were?

To be truly expressive mean not to confuse your expression with noise. So if you want to express joy, every fiber in your being is coordinated in joy.

Try this exercise. Ask someone an honestly open ended question. Then fix your gaze on their eyes or forehead (play with this... I am) and maintain an open, curious body position. This may mean having your arms by your side, but probably not crossed.

If you have the capacity, totally empty your mind of any thought. And just feel the moment.

Truly expressing your emotions is an amazing capacity. You generate emotions somewhere and then your body expresses them. Try focusing on your solar plexus to see what feeling are generated there. Its quite a little meditation.

Any case, I've focused on expression. But the title of the post is "practice, experience, incorporate, express." This formula is one for success at any goal.

You'll succeed. Peace.

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Money -- I own you!

Last night I attended a lecture in which a great question was asked. "Who owns who? Do I own money or does it own me?"

My life, for the most part, has been one that forces me to be a penny pincher and frugel. That's just not my personality. Don't get me wrong. I don't want to "waste" money. I want my money to serve me. Period. All too often my financial situation prevents me from actualizing my vision. And yes, I have a vision. Without it, I don't know what I'd do with my life. Probably live a life of mediocrity. And that is, in my opinion, as good as being dead. We don't need another 'ordiniary' person.

Does anyone know anyone out there who owns money and isn't owned by money? A person who comes from a place of abundance?

Blogging the blog

" If you want to learn something , read about it . If you want to understand something, write about it. If you want to master something, teach it. "

This quotation is from Yogi Bhajan. I swear, everytime I think I know something, this guy deepens my insight tenfold. I look forward to writing this blog. And you get to be my little guinea pigs.

Monday, October 10, 2005

Schiavo Didn't Veg This Much

This entire weekend was filled with clouds and rain. All I did Saturday and Sunday was sit around and watch TV. Here's what I can remember watching:

  • Samurai Champloo
  • Full Metal Alchemist
  • Baseball
  • Football
  • Bush's Brain
  • X-Men the original FOX cartoon series
  • Breaking Bonaduce

And there's no way that filled what had to be 20 hours of TV. When my eyes started to hurt, I just kept on watching TV. My eyes still hurt. I can't remember watching so much TV in one weekend. Friends would invite me out and I swear I would mumble something utterly incoherent, hang up and return to my new found master.

On the other hand, I strongly recommend Full Metal Alchemist if you're into Anime and Breaking Bonaduce if you like to see a self-destructive TV personality.

Remember... Peace in the Middle East!

Friday, October 07, 2005

Storytelling and Authority

Stories, in my opinion, have always been one of the best ways to relate an idea without being sounding like an asshole. I enjoy stories. They tell something interesting about life and people, but they also convey values.

Dave Pollard recently posted "10 Steps to Better Story-Telling" and he's right on. (If you like his post check out "The Story Factor" or "The Power of Personal Storytelling").

All of us tell stories. It's great! I love to listen to someone's story. Especially if they're skilled (you know like bow hunting skills or computer hacking skills). All of these references share how to tell a great story and what topics are of great interest to people.

Here's my questions. How do you develop the authority to tell a great story? Especially one that hints at values? I know I've done it. I know I've done it well. And I know I totally flopped on it.

Thursday, October 06, 2005


I stumbled across Gackt (pronounced "ga-ku-to" a Japanese musician turned diva turned movie star turned god a few months ago when a good buddy of mine revealed his man crush. After viewing some his concert DVDs, I don't blame him.

Personally, I think the man has some style. I love the theatrics of Malice Mizer. Each one of the four members paraded onto stage to some intro music. They each wore a different colored angel outfit. The guitars were fastened to a stand designating their place on stage. The four on stage minus Gackt would start the song. Both with a sense of expectation and wonder, Gackt as black angel would descend from above. His face was painted white, his mouth stained with blood from a recent feeding. The music changes pace to mark both his entrance, descent and landing. All in all, majestic.

So if you haven't heard of Gackt, that's cool. It seems like not too many people know of him. But in Japan, he's worshipped. Japanese worship differently than Americans. This guy has been on top going on 10 years now. For one, the story that surrounds him and his performance is mythic. He claims to be born in 1540 making him 465 years old. (Reminds me of rebirth and immortality... but that's another post) His sensuality beams on stage. His answer to questions of his sexuality are ambigious at best basically telling the fans to "believe whatever works best for you."

So here's my question. What is it that makes a person beam? How do you become radiant and hold a crowd in awe? We've all, hopefully, been mezmorized by a performer. Or seduced by a music act. Religious people have had this power before. How hard is it to have a group of people 'fall' for your image? Ahhh... hot game. What a fascinating topic. Anyone out there ever think about this stuff?

Wednesday, October 05, 2005


I practice yoga because it eases my mind and relaxes my body.

When I'm relaxed and at ease, I can be honest.

I practice yoga because it increases my awareness.

When I am aware I can be subtle or powerful or both.

When I practice yoga I become more than I was before.